The Daydreaming

Marching competition ( The best i have ever joined in my life)

Hi everybody and Assalamualaikum everyone! Since im in a great mood and doing nothing, i kinda want to update my blog.

Okay harini dah masuk 2-3 bulan lebih i live in university. Previously i was busy with works,assignment, and dont get enough sleep and rest. so i dont have time to update this blog.

okok kita straight to the main topic.

I love living in university altho obstacles and problems often messed up my mind. Aku cerita moment yang best jelah eh.

I was experienced in marching thingy thing. lol ok basically semua student part 1 diploma(including me) and degree must and compulsary to join pertandingan kawad. At first memang tak rela pun masuk sebab penat dia yaAllah hanya Tuhan je yang tahu. Dah serik dah masa sekolah menengah dulu. But luckily i got a very supportive senior that conducting our group. Beliau-beliau ialah cik Muaz,Syaza and Zaireen. First impression: sombongnya. mesti garang. tak sukalah. BUT mereka tersangatlah kelakar especially muaz dgn syaza. Muaz part 5 and syaza part 3. Kalau sehari tu takada lawak diorang memang tak sah. So because of them, i enjoyed while practice marching with them. Our team practiced day and night in three weeks before the day of the competition. But not everyday lah. hahaha.

Memang banyak sangat moment yang lawak dan kelakar dan sedih. Kalau cerita kat sini maybe takkan habis.

moment yang kelakar:
Komander Muaz: Ok Nurul saya nak tengok awak buat ke belakang pusing.
Aisyah: eh nama saya aisyah.
Komander Muaz: ok mulai dari harini nama awak nurul.
Aisyah n lain-lain: (emoji gelak keluar airmata)

Komander Muaz: (nak tunjuk cara jalan berdada) cuba awak semua tengok pramugari dgn pramugara. semuanya jalan mendada.
Komander Muaz:(jalan mcm pramugari, acah acah tengah tarik luggage) excuse me.

hahahaha takleh move on.

moment bila ada couple tengah lalu depan kitorang semua.
Komander Muaz: dah berubah dah kawan kawan aku. Smua nya dah pandai dating. Aku je sampai sekarang single.
Komander Syaza: jangan percaya gais dia tak single gais dia dah ada awek gaisss
Komander Muaz: eh mana ada lah
Komander Zaireen: eh yeke habistu yang Sunshineee tu siapa?
Muaz:...
yang lain: hahahaahahh

komander syaza:(tengah buat lawak)
syabil: hambarlahhh
komander syaza: eh mana ada hambar okay, ha tengok ada orang gelak.
tiba-tiba semua diam.
syabil: hahahahaha
yg lain pun ikut gelak jugak

saya masih takboleh moveon dengan mereka.

kami semua tak expect pun menang juara keseluruhan.

But at the end, we won!

and our leaders cried and touched.

especially komander Muaz.First time kami semua tengok dia menangis depan kami semua.

Komander Muaz:ok tahniah kepada semua sebab dah menang juara keseluruhan.Terima kasih sebab dah hadir dalam hidup saya

at this moment he cover up his face with his hat and cried.
after awhile, dia pusing belakang.(malu lah nangis depan orang)
and then,

Komander Muaz: Inilah hadiah hari jadi saya yang paling bermakna buat saya.

and i cried too. we all touched with what had he said.

The day before that competition was his birthday.

Im so happy that our leaders happy.

Our sacrifices in three weeks worth it.

I love this family

PlatunDAalwaysinmymemory.

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im.not.crazy.

okay you must feel weird with the title, right? its just a title.
why i choose that title?

while im waiting for the result of my application in certain universities,i need to do something that gonna be useful bila aku dah masuk universiti nanti.soooo
i decided to keep practicing everyday in speaking or speech dalam bahasa inggeris in front of the mirror.sound crazy but thats a reality.

i got a lot of information from teachers and other ppl,when you studying in the university,you will facing a loottt of presentation and group works.andd you need to speak in english while presenting your work in front of ppl.so aku pikir aku kena practice dari sekarang so that i will speak fluently and confidently without any "aaaaaaa" "hmmmmm"(faham kan tang ni?okay i proceed)

so everyday, i speak or describe something that happened in my life.by myself.seorang diri.alone.takadasiapa pun dengar.macam orang gila.BUT aku tak gila. its just an effort to improve myself in speaking so that i will be a better person than yesterday.

up until now, masih tak fluent lagi.sooo many mistakes.still hard for describe a thing.but i still wanna try.

i used to story about myself, trying to describe some songs that i listened,trying to tell a short story based on what i watched.such as

at the moment,i listening to a song.its korean song titled Fate by lee sun hun . the melody of the song including the chinese/korean traditional instrumental(i do love listening to the chinese traditional instrumental,bcs its sound so sad) so this song is about a husband's singer who was died.then the singer create the lyrics and the song after her husband died. so thats why the song's title is Fate.
here a the some lyrics on that song

"This is what we call "fate".Its something we cant deny,
will i ever experience a beautiful day like this again in my life?
You're the gift on this exhausting path of life,
i'll always wash and shine this love so it wont rust away"
(lyrics in english)

its so sad and i cried. why i cry?(aku bayangkan lagu ni ditujukan kpd my parents)
sampai aku cakap,biarlah aku pergi dulu.
i cant imagine hows my life will gonne be , if they gone.(my eyes berair bila taip ni)

so back to the topic,thats how i describe a song and try to speak by myself.
we need to start now.

if not now, then when?

okay thats all from me.till we meet again.

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im blessed

Hi and assalamualaikum dear readers!(macamlah ada readers). its been a long time since i graduated from my secondary school,i haven't update anything in my "precious" blog. why? lazy.i spend my leisure time,doing nothing.ya nothing.ok lets go to the main point.

last year(2016), i faced a big and important examination which is SPM peacefully.ya soo "peaceful". but in reality, only me and other students who are same batch like me , understand how stressful we were.untill i need to sacrifice my social media(i uninstall it), occasionally watched tv,i slept only 4 hours a day.only focused 100% in my study.

and this year(2017),im gonna get my result and actually i already got my result! yahhhhhhhhhh bcs today is 15th of april. the date that we need to attend to school to ambik result was 16th of march.sooo dah nak sebulan dah.guess what? i got straight As!!!!!! yah tapi dalam mimpi.i got 6As and i feel so blessed altho i didnt get all As. its okay maybe its not my time yet.Honestly, my expectation was so high(got at least 9As) but altho realitinya tak dapat apa yang dijangka, im still blessed with it 💖💖
and rasa bangga dengan diri aku sebab boleh redha dengan mudah.mudahlah juga.

i will not get what i got now without my parents,my teachers,my friends who are always helped me whenever i got trouble,whenever i stressed with many thing.whenever im so blur with certain subtopics.im just feel really bersyukur and soo thankful for teachers who never gave up easily with their students(doing classes eventho student tak ramaipun datang.gave countless past questions and other addtitional questionsss.) until i want to make their sacrifices towards students worth it( with giving them a good result)

also, their endless dua for me.

6As still consider as a good result so just tutup mata tutup telinga when makcikmakcik and pakcikpakcik comparing my result with my cousin's result(ingat senang ke nak dapat A)

and without usaha,you will not get what you want in life.

my school didnt get any student who got straight As so principal felt upset with that.

my friends, all of them got a good result. He knows what's the best for us.dont think you got an A or no A , you stupid.no! its just not your time yet. believe Allah's faith,alright?

its not the end.its the beginning of your life journey.

there are many opportunities, all you have to do is grab that opportunity!

thats all from me.till we meet again.

Perancangan Allah yang terbaik

Addmaths

My dream was change 360 degree celcius after sat for addmath paper which is today (17 November 2016)

In the morning, i came with a high hope and high spirit with the mind set "i can do it" plus with confident that i can get A in this subject.Dengan bawa harapan parents especially my dad who is menaruh harapan yang tinggi on me. The teachers who expect me to get A.

But, when i opened the papers,i felt so down.The new format of the papers was tough for me.Really tough.Really really tough.at the moment my dad's face appeared in my mind. i said "i need to pass it". then i answered it whenever its right or wrong.Whenever there are lots off kbat's question, i did answered it.

then there was a gap between paper 1 and paper 2 question. so when i went out of the hall , i decided to study betul betul for the next paper.Aku nak score dekat paper 2.Aku nak dapat A.untuk ayah aku.untuk mak aku.untuk cikgu.

But i just want to cry bila aku bukak kertas soalan for paper 2. I question myself,"how can i score this papers?! kbat everywhere1" i was mad.Aku tak tahu nak jawab soalan 1. Aku lupa padahal baru belajar berapa jam yang lepas.Aku tengok soalan 2, aku blur. Aku cuma tahu certain questions and takbawak banyak markah pun.And can you imagine aku tiba tiba blank and jadi buntu sangat sangat.aku nak selesaikan satu soalan kbat was toooo hard.Aku tertekan.Aku tengok orang sekeliling aku,diorang boleh jawab.Aku rasa aku jawab was more worse than the trials paper.and the questions that i spot to get high marks, were came out as a kbat questions.Aku sangat sangat tertekan.Aku jawab soalan circles pun dah ambik masa berminit-minit.but i still dont get a final answer.Soalan indices pun was too hard.its too different with the trials questions.Situasi ni sama bila aku jawab math paper for PT3. And yes i cried.

Bila aku sedar most of the questions aku hanya buat separuh and did not have the final answer,then i realise that its imposibble for me to get A.

My eyes was watery for the last 15 minutes. Whenever its going to the end , i still trying to answer but Aku blank.

My eyes was red when i went out of the hall.I kept saying sorry in my heart to my dad whenever his face appeared in my mind.i said "Abah,sy mintak maaf sangat.sy sudah buat yang terbaik untuk paper ni.sy mintak maaf sebab tak mampu nak berikan A untuk Addmath kpd Abah.sy tahu Abah berharap sangat yang saya akan dapat A.tapi,sy tak mampu,bah." and thats why i cried.

and my teacher "im so sorry teacher.im so sorry." and thats why i cried.

its rainy in evening but i did not care. aku redah jugak because my heart was too hurt till i cant fell the rain.

I already knew my friends were doing great in addmaths. They even said the question was not so hard than the paper 1. But for me, aku dah musnahkan harapan ayah aku.Itu yang membuatkan aku menangis.

i really hope gred turun.

Its too hurt till im not in mood to revise other subject.i need calmness.

Tapi, Ini mungkin yang terbaik untuk aku.Mungkin bukan rezeki aku di sini.Aku percaya kuasa Allah. Dia Maha Kuasa.

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What you give,you'll get back.

Based on the title,what i want to share today,this night is what i had done to people is happened to me now.

What had i done? I am too ego till didnt think about people's feeling. I am overthinking till stress myself.

in fact,everyone has the "ego" but its up to them macam mana nak kawalnya.

And,i believe the phrase that said "lidah lebih tajam daripada sebilah pedang"

Because of a word,can hurt someone's heart.

Maybe,Mungkin.I need to change back to my old character.so that nobody's heart will get hurt.

And,jaga hati sendiri dulu.Jangan sampai koyak rabak.

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Mind full of stress

Tahun yang penuh dengan dugaan.Mencabar mental terutamanya untuk bertahan dalam menempuhi dugaan.Pikul tekanan yang berat tiap hari.Stress sangat sampai terkeluar air mata.Sampaikan rasa nak give up.Sampaikan rasa nak berhenti sekolah.Sampaikan taknak fikir pasal spm dah.Sampai tahap macam tu sekali.

Harapan ibu ayah yang besar,aku pikul.Aku takut,aku hancurkan harapan mereka.Mereka cuma nak yang terbaik buat aku.Aku pula nak beri result yang terbaik kepada mereka.Spm sekarang tak sama dengan yang dulu.Dulu,soalan hanya takat KBKK sahaja.Sekarang,KBAT nya berlambak dalam soalan.Kena pikir luar kotak.Kena ada huraian semuanya.

Kalau boleh,aku nak drop subjek yang aku tak suka.Tapi,dunia sekarang susah nak dapat kerja/tawaran,jadi subjek tu yang boleh menjamin aku kelak.

Aku nak pergi bercuti.Aku nak tenangkan fikiran,Hidup penuh dengan tekanan,ni baru zaman sekolah.belum masuk alam pekerjaan/universiti.

Kalau aku sedih,kalau aku stress,aku cari kekuatan.Berdoa.

Jangan harapkan kawan 100% because people can come and go.Aku kena ikhtiar sendiri.Nanti dah dewasa,takkan masih nak harapkan kawan kut? cuba jadi independent.

Takpe,perlukan pengorbanan dalam menggapai kecemerlangan.Allah ada.

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Reactions after got exam paper

Bismillah.
Currently I always sign in my blogger to rearrange back my layout and bla bla bla since i have a leisure time this week(sebab baru habis exam mid-year) + kerajinan datang tak diduga.

So,the topic that i want to share is the reaction lepas dapat exam paper.Sebab macam-macam reaksi yang ditunjukkan bila dapat je kertas exam.Sedih sikit,kecewa,gembira,tak sangka,takada perasaan happy atau sedih,redha,takut.

Ini baru je exam mid-year.
Ada yang kecewa.Maybe dia sampai sanggup stayup sampai pukul 3 pagi lepastu tak keluar rehat,duduk dalam kelas then study.Pergi mana-mana mesti ada buku.Masa makan pun baca buku.Dah doa and expect akan dapat A .But it still same.Markah still sama.Takada perubahan yang besar.So whats the problem?Mungkin ada dosa antara manusia(gosip,fitnah).Mungkin masih buat benda maksiat.Mungkin ada buat cikgu terasa hati.Mungkinn..

Sedih.Please jangan rasa sedih yang melampau.Kalau sedih pun,takada mengubah markah yang dah tertulis kat atas kertas kau dengan pen merah(detailnya).Bila dah dapat markah teruk,muhasabah diri.Cari mana salahnya.Perbetulkan.Dont give up easily.Sebab itu baru mid-year.

Happy.Kalau happy tu confirmlah dapat markah gempak.If you get the good result ,say Alhamdulillah.because if He said NO,then it will not become reality.Kunfayakun.Be grateful and always be grateful.macam padi,semakin berisi semakin tunduk.Be like paddy.

(ini nasihat untuk diri aku jugak)
Apa yang kau dapat,bersyukur.Bukan hanya result exam je.Semakin kau bersyukur,semakin murah dan mencurah-curah rezeki.(Macam hipotesis je)
Hipotesis diterima ? Ya.

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